BLAH BLAH VLAH

Soooo I haven't had much to write on. I just shopped and shopped. Got lotsa things I needed, bras,sheets and some other things...like those damn make-up brushes that Sephora hasn't sent yet... BASTARDS. I had to go major bitch on them.
XD.

WHat else.... I've been bored as fuck...... yup

OHHHH @gottalovelife

i finished betrayed :)

Broke the fast

damn today of all days my dad wanted Mickey D’s for fathers day. I ate the grilled chicken sandwhich and now i feel awful. I’m not surprised. I’m pretty sure it was the french fries that did it. I’m just laying low until I feel better.  I can’t wait until this coming Weds. to have food with great people and drinks! I cannot wait!!! :) I’m so figgin excited to just catch up. Tee Hee!!!

<3

Well, now I can see why my health prof.  from this past semester Mcd’s was gross. Oh well, I’m making better food choices now so thats a start :)

postive reinforcement

So I finished my hectic ass semester at DH. Thankgod!!! I 'm just worried cuz the grades haven't been posted yet. I know for sure I for one A and one B-. But I'm not sure about the other classes.
Now I can concentrate on Elco... passing my friggin Anatomy Physio class.
Girls night out tonite~ :)
I'm excited for summer~~ wanna go to the beach,maybe a club~ for sure a BBQ party at my place. TONS and TONS of shit....since I ain't on the "chain gang" anymore~~~~ :p
Yup thats about it.

haven't written in a while

like a couple months? besides school. ive been lazy lazy lazy. thats the only relevant excuse i have. yup. oh and since i'm working that takes up some time. but thats it.
i haven't been able to do too much..because its school,other school on days off its work go home. but im hopefully going to get lucky and actually hangout with a friend or two soon!!!
i need a breath of fresh air. i can't be cooped up inside my dark ass house the whole day. its kinda funny i went outside last time and i was like.. ohhh its soo nice and sunny out!! only reason i didn't know was because in my dark room. hahaha.
im gonna try my hardest to start exercising me. i have literally gained soo much weight its no funny anymore. atleast im not going on my eating binges at night anymore! thank god. and i haven't had anything to eat 2 hours prior,now i just gotta get my sleepin habit in order for sunday nites and tues nites for now... i can barely wake-up for my reg. class. oh wellzo. in due time ill get at it.
thats it for now~

fucking shit

i cant fuckin believe that the times tht i actually mess up in life. it feels like alll the world comes down on me. i knw im not the best at taking constructive critisizm but,i cant handle 3 different people yelling at me for the mistake i made today. it was a small mistake. (getting lost in a bad part of town, but i made it home okay) and i learned and i made sure ill never do it again. its like i do things right most of the time and i never recieve postive things said to me. and when i do things right its oh good job every now and then. then when i reallly mess up a lot of ppl call me on my mistakes. i knw i need to work on my confidence issues and being such a fuckin pushoverbut fuck some postive reinforcement is needed,with any person--kids,adults we are all the same. im sick of acting ,trying to be the strong one and when it comes down to it i don't have any balls NONE. ive been told to WALK the WALK for a while now. i feel like im trying but i guess it aint enough, i guess i have to be more AT HOME have no life. u knw? fuk. i cant wait to get my own life. i just need a break.
since music is such a great venter - and i cant scream since theres company-
LINKIN PARK album minutes to midnight.

just trying to MOVE foward.

learning is a powerful thing! - LONG LONG entry!

so its the 3rd week of classes! (pretty quick~) lets see. soo my classes are pretty cool. my behavior modification class is friggin sweet!
we get to modify someones behavior. so i went asking and i finally got my neighbor to say yes! imm gunna modify her eating behavior- (for confidentiallity..imma call her Amie) amie works a lot,so she can't or doesnt have a set schedule for eating at all. which is numb one unhealthy and two makes her body crave stuff when she shldn;t. but amie thinks she eats too much. amie's family members and i don't agree. so im tryin to get amie to eat breakfast and lunch at a set time. or try to , and will reward her in someway to increase it.

basically its more intresting for me to learn material if i do something then read about it.

and for stats in kines..its just statistics in kines. its not hard,just the reading and examples have to be in depth so its like a higher thinking thing. and i have the same professor for a online/discussion thing called technology in kines,its just applying technology to kinesiology. which sounds boring,but its cool.

sports psych is my last class at dh (then its elco all days ^_^) well tht class is like the one at elco,but its not really like sports..hmm its like, applied so u can use it even if ur not a athlete --like me! it helps with ur inner training like the way u thin of things. personally i tht it was fasinating! its like if a person is egositic and is very emotional u can apply it to ,thinking task oriented! its a logical basis for many things!


what else,oh yeah so my week is pretttyy nice~~cuz i have no class tmrw nd tues. and chill day ( still gotta do online hw) but anywhoo.. and then just read for sports psych and my other classes. tmrw i make crepes and food for my family friend,he seems so lonely after his wife passed.it just urks the fuk outta me tht his child doesnt see tht the father is lonely. but then again i cant see the other side of the childs point of view so i cant really say..... anyway so crepes and movies with a buddy. and thursday~ karaoke with melly and mary ann!!
:) YAYS!!!!!!!!! effing awesome!!!! and we get to "purchase!" our friggin transcripts from elco. and then on friday i meet r's friend at dh to give him a tour at dh. :) yep yep! so its pretty packed WHICH I LOVE. its better then being a hermit and doing my normal, facebook,youtube,hulu,blogger,tvonline thing. i need some actual person contact haha. im so thankful i get invited out! :) LUV YA BESITES! im so grateful to have such wonderful besties. the ones i can go crazy at fukkk arnd nd they wont care,the ones i can be my dark and twisty self around and i knw they will help me outta my hole. yup! just waiting for my crush to tap into my head :) haha okay enuf of tht stuff. yup. welp~ thts it. thnx for reading.

insomnia is getting the best of me

i don't think iv'e written in here for a while. im totally stuck in insomnia mode again. im sure my 2 cups of strong ass coffee don't help but w/e. i wanted to stay up. i totally have the damn nausea...so that doesn't help either. sooo other then me totally complaining(monku monku) umm school started up again. its been totally awesome. i end up going up to my loner mode. i think its cuz im trying to actually graduate so i dunt wanna mess up like ive done before. got my 1st online assignment done..just gotta do one more before tomorrow. yupyup. what else got back in touch with my date thanks to the great advice of my bestie~ i txted him yesterday to find out he was on lockdown at skl from a bomb threat. thnk god hes ok. it was just a scare. im so glad i dunt go there no more.. i saw too much crazy ass shit there. i asked him if hes free next weekend just to hang none of the vday stuff. he said hes not sure. but w/e ill just curl up with a good book and romantic movies like always. hehe. what else... um just worried about my health,but i guess its kinda of a watch and wait and get help from the acutal person with a Md. and not my internet Md. ANYWAYS... dont reply to my rant part its just me ranting. ive had a aweeesome time hanging with melly :) always there to listen to my various rants while i drive ... lol
im not a big fan of this rain... i wanted to go outside today~ well... thts out the window. ill just do stuff inside today! :)
hmmmm im waiting on my job offer. :) YAY.
kinda not excited tht elco is gunna start again ...ill have no life. i get to actuallystudynotsitaroundonmyassandchillafterclass. but itll be good since i learned tht we only use 18 percent of our brain. isnt tht crazy?? tht means we can learn for everrrrrrrrrrrrr.
well...thts about it for now.
<3 the ventin at 2 in the mornin