2 more days

until class starts! how awesomeeeeeee. im excited but pretty nervous attempting to take 19 units..will be a lot! but ill just have to try and try like hell because in the end it will all be worth all the blood,sweat and tears~ ( lots of tears). what else... this has probably been the best winter break so far ( take out the one in Japan) but I got a lot of stuff done, got to go on a date, hang with the besties, make and bake a lot of crap, shop too much and sleep. :) i can't wait to graduate, find a job and get my own place!! ill be soo on my own for once! can't wait! I just gotta keep going foward.
<3 ya besties!!

great friends,good food, great company

This past weekend was sooo flipping awesome!!!! I had my friends come over and cooked lunch as well as a dinner noodle thing tht bunny gave me. We started a grey's marathon outta nowhere. Surprisingly we got mel addicted to it. <3 it! After tht melly stayed the night~ yay~~! Then we went to get her stuff from her house did a CVS run. Tallked like crazy and then knocked out~ I was soo happy~ ^^
What else.... ive been having soo much pain again. I know tht the growth is expanding... I'm not scared...whatever happens in April, I'll find out theres 2 options --( surgery ..or -- lets not think of the other one until we have to.) --either way I'm ready!
I decided to make ammends with my uncle ( father's sisters ex) called him, heard hes not dong so well, and so he mite come to L.A for this last visit before he tanks... I was supposed to take him to my dead mother's father's grave.. then I talked to my dad about it... he told me that wouldn't be right I would be betraying my aunt.. which I can see--- but its like I'm totally not seeing his view my uncle wasn't the greatest man to me but he was/is my uncle.. I mean he sent me a pic of his dog he is caring for now.. the man literally looks like hes DYING. poor poor man.
I was told even going out for coffee was betrayal... fukk family feuds and such.
What should I do?
Can I get a opinion?
P.S The truth sucks ass but I'm ready.

cant sleep cant sleep too much monster with coffee in it.

sooooooooooo im soo in lust or whatever....
i just feel all warm and fuzzy.
i dunt want skl to start kinda nervous but excited about alot of things.
not skl related more like friend and lust related. hehehehee
neways love ya besties~ near and far <3 ya

fun drives

sooo u all totally knw whut went down yesterday. :) teehee i had my 2nd date.. well i call it tht. i got to his house and we watched taiyou no uta (movie) and then i drove us back to my hometown,went to pv mall,went to eat thai food :). Went and got his friend from east la. lol haven't been in tht part out town for a while and then to little tokyo and chilled. then to drop off his friend poor guy doesn't have a car--reminds me of the time i was at csun and took the bus home T_T--so i took him to bell. ( kinda like the strip part of la) then to his house again :) he walked me out...hugged me goodnite. and said he wanted to hangout next week :) maybe maybe not depends on his schedule. im soooo excited for my bestie to meet him! :) <3 ya mel!

yayayayy

since yesterday
a lot of things are looking up.
i get to see a friend i haven't seen in a while on sat.
i get to see my bestie in a couple mins! :)
annnnd i feel like i have a lotta support in my life <3 ya besties!

I'm gunna let you down gonna toss you around gonna make u want everything u haven't found.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=myYQWWBCXI0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WtAOX5uYZ90&feature=related

I'm sooooo lazy...barely got up at 9. Sat around as I usually did. I spent so much effing money today and yesterday. (today as in 12 in the morning.)
Books,Printer ink, Mp3 Player since its gone... (I'm soo irresponsible. T_T)
Ummm.. sum clothes and a new pierce. I'm pretty happy with it all...but I do realize I'm missing something in my life. Its a J-0-B and a man. I start to feel so happy and sad and all crazy sometmes. Its like when I'm with my friends i'm soo friggin happy. Then I come home to my crazy ass house, I notice if I had a job and a boyfriend I would b able to cuddle with and enjoy reallly start enjoying my life! I'm just so impatient I guess. I can't wait to move out and find a man and start MY LIFE. With my best friends there to support me through it. Well, at least I did one thing revitting this week I got my ear done! :)