I'm sick and tired of tryin to b perfect toward my fuckin parents... more like parent. Are you KIDDING ME! I can't understand why she thinks threatening me will help. I am planning to GET THE FUCK OUT. Do i have money right now? NO! GODDAMNMNIT use your freakin head. Why did I come home. Why am I commuting to school. I HATE BEING in such a crappy household. Just becuase your in pain doesn't me you can take it out on me. I'm venting to not go back in that dark hole. I don't wanna have to deal with the conseqeunces...less friends...all bullshit..all the scars..seeing my life flash before my eyes. I mean I was barely picking up my shot down body off of the ground and now getting shot down again makes it sooo much harder to pick myself up. But I have to. If I don't I might not make it. I have to.
Hopefully socking the shit outta my bed will calm me down. I can't wait to be be back in school on Tues. I need to leave this shit.
