its been a long time

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stressful week..much?

I finished all my exams for the time being. I was stressed out on monday with 2 i found out my 2nd one didn't do too well. T_T Thankfully there is 2 more exams and small quizzes. I did my paper for my Motor class... it was supposed to be due today in his mind but everyone yelled and said it was monday... and then hes like ur hearing what you want to hear. Fine... just turn it in Monday...if you have it today turn it in and leave. He gave the ones that did it today to re do the paper when we get it back. I was like thank god! I need attend a workshop for writing resumes too next week and finish my midterm study guide. X0
I'm sure i'll get it done.
Thank god I have some me time this weekend.

BTW
I <3 u guy's blog posts all the cute pix n vids! :)

finally

why do i always write in this when i have nothing better to do. oh well. the first week of school kicked my ass...it wasn't just waking up early, it was trying to add classes and getting denied from the fucking system ol. oh well... what else i have sooo much reading to do. i also get to study for the gwe~ yay.
i think the only thing i enjoyed was seeing melly on campus! hehe i also got to see my kin classmates again so tht was nice. also chilling with belinda was awesome~
hmmm yup.
so im prolly gunna run errands when i get off my shift. i really need to tell tht bitch abt extending my hours.
lately the only thing i look forward to is moving out and of course graduation and grad skl in the future.
of course chillin w the girls and allan :)

finally done

i can finally plan next semester accordingly now that i am on break. yayyy!!!

finally back into the swing of things

so i just found out we r 7 weeks into school. my bestie and fb buddy told me 9 more to go~ thankgod we r almost halfway through.
i already am feeling burned out. im so glad i get these mini breaks in between on the weekends to chill out my brain and stuff thankkgoooddness or i woulda lost my head already.

anyway only a bunch of good things to say.
im finally feeling normal again. :)

ttyl

just keeping my head above the surface and am pushing thru

FUUCCCCCCCCKKKK

I'm sick and tired of tryin to b perfect toward my fuckin parents... more like parent. Are you KIDDING ME! I can't understand why she thinks threatening me will help. I am planning to GET THE FUCK OUT. Do i have money right now? NO! GODDAMNMNIT use your freakin head. Why did I come home. Why am I commuting to school. I HATE BEING in such a crappy household. Just becuase your in pain doesn't me you can take it out on me. I'm venting to not go back in that dark hole. I don't wanna have to deal with the conseqeunces...less friends...all bullshit..all the scars..seeing my life flash before my eyes. I mean I was barely picking up my shot down body off of the ground and now getting shot down again makes it sooo much harder to pick myself up. But I have to. If I don't I might not make it. I have to.
Hopefully socking the shit outta my bed will calm me down. I can't wait to be be back in school on Tues. I need to leave this shit.

Lots of fun comes w worries.

I had a awesome time hanging out w my besties today.

I was so pissed though becauseI got home and got told I was "wasting my life" going out by my ***** of a mother. But I know this is because she is in pain since her hip is out of alignment and shes in pain so she takes this shit out on me. Thankfully she'll be getting her surgery in December of this year. Which means a total hip replacement and rehab. I think the worst part for her will be the rehab... since shes not tooo slef motivated. But I know the PT's will do their best to whoop her in the ass if she doesnt do it. I messaged one of my PT's that I volunteered for at the hospital. To see what the recovery time is and how much rehab. I know it will be a general answer if anything..but this way I will get a peace of mind for once. Other then that I'm sick of being at home with all these people ( 2old ladies) for getting on my case for no reason ; but that they are old and need to bitch at someone.


I cannot wait until I move out and am on my own. I do miss being on my own ...but that was at a price. But at least I learned from my mistakes and will never do that again. But the fact that I will move out and set my own standards for what is correct and wrong and keep a good "gray" area as to what I want to do. I know if I ever need to be told I'm wrong I have wonderful sister-like friends to tell me straight. I'm just gonna do my best to focus on RIGHT NOW and none of this FUTURE shit. Its making me care way too much. I need to stop it...it'll make me stress for no reason. But I'm focused on doing what needs to be done for school. I can't wait to go and get my future . Grasp it in my hands and make a life out of me and make what defines me.