Lots of fun comes w worries.

I had a awesome time hanging out w my besties today.

I was so pissed though becauseI got home and got told I was "wasting my life" going out by my ***** of a mother. But I know this is because she is in pain since her hip is out of alignment and shes in pain so she takes this shit out on me. Thankfully she'll be getting her surgery in December of this year. Which means a total hip replacement and rehab. I think the worst part for her will be the rehab... since shes not tooo slef motivated. But I know the PT's will do their best to whoop her in the ass if she doesnt do it. I messaged one of my PT's that I volunteered for at the hospital. To see what the recovery time is and how much rehab. I know it will be a general answer if anything..but this way I will get a peace of mind for once. Other then that I'm sick of being at home with all these people ( 2old ladies) for getting on my case for no reason ; but that they are old and need to bitch at someone.


I cannot wait until I move out and am on my own. I do miss being on my own ...but that was at a price. But at least I learned from my mistakes and will never do that again. But the fact that I will move out and set my own standards for what is correct and wrong and keep a good "gray" area as to what I want to do. I know if I ever need to be told I'm wrong I have wonderful sister-like friends to tell me straight. I'm just gonna do my best to focus on RIGHT NOW and none of this FUTURE shit. Its making me care way too much. I need to stop it...it'll make me stress for no reason. But I'm focused on doing what needs to be done for school. I can't wait to go and get my future . Grasp it in my hands and make a life out of me and make what defines me.