finally back into the swing of things

so i just found out we r 7 weeks into school. my bestie and fb buddy told me 9 more to go~ thankgod we r almost halfway through.
i already am feeling burned out. im so glad i get these mini breaks in between on the weekends to chill out my brain and stuff thankkgoooddness or i woulda lost my head already.

anyway only a bunch of good things to say.
im finally feeling normal again. :)

ttyl

just keeping my head above the surface and am pushing thru

FUUCCCCCCCCKKKK

I'm sick and tired of tryin to b perfect toward my fuckin parents... more like parent. Are you KIDDING ME! I can't understand why she thinks threatening me will help. I am planning to GET THE FUCK OUT. Do i have money right now? NO! GODDAMNMNIT use your freakin head. Why did I come home. Why am I commuting to school. I HATE BEING in such a crappy household. Just becuase your in pain doesn't me you can take it out on me. I'm venting to not go back in that dark hole. I don't wanna have to deal with the conseqeunces...less friends...all bullshit..all the scars..seeing my life flash before my eyes. I mean I was barely picking up my shot down body off of the ground and now getting shot down again makes it sooo much harder to pick myself up. But I have to. If I don't I might not make it. I have to.
Hopefully socking the shit outta my bed will calm me down. I can't wait to be be back in school on Tues. I need to leave this shit.

Lots of fun comes w worries.

I had a awesome time hanging out w my besties today.

I was so pissed though becauseI got home and got told I was "wasting my life" going out by my ***** of a mother. But I know this is because she is in pain since her hip is out of alignment and shes in pain so she takes this shit out on me. Thankfully she'll be getting her surgery in December of this year. Which means a total hip replacement and rehab. I think the worst part for her will be the rehab... since shes not tooo slef motivated. But I know the PT's will do their best to whoop her in the ass if she doesnt do it. I messaged one of my PT's that I volunteered for at the hospital. To see what the recovery time is and how much rehab. I know it will be a general answer if anything..but this way I will get a peace of mind for once. Other then that I'm sick of being at home with all these people ( 2old ladies) for getting on my case for no reason ; but that they are old and need to bitch at someone.


I cannot wait until I move out and am on my own. I do miss being on my own ...but that was at a price. But at least I learned from my mistakes and will never do that again. But the fact that I will move out and set my own standards for what is correct and wrong and keep a good "gray" area as to what I want to do. I know if I ever need to be told I'm wrong I have wonderful sister-like friends to tell me straight. I'm just gonna do my best to focus on RIGHT NOW and none of this FUTURE shit. Its making me care way too much. I need to stop it...it'll make me stress for no reason. But I'm focused on doing what needs to be done for school. I can't wait to go and get my future . Grasp it in my hands and make a life out of me and make what defines me.

I followed my besties ad in blogger and went to Body Basics. OMFG It was the best sale ever!! I got my Halloween Coustume ( I know its wayyy too early) But I got it for 20 bux instead of 40.  But yeah and I took a into to sewing class. And then went to Tai Chi but the guy wasn’t there so I left. Haha… yup. I had a pretty productive day.

I had a uber great day yesterday too besties caught up with our bestie who was MIA in Japan. It was sooo nice to be together again.

after this i will seriously get back to cleaning my room....

So I haven't been up to much lately besides working my ass off to pay my credit card bill and school supplies. I mean it may not sound excting but I'm kinda getting used to the fact that this is what it will be like when I get a job. It may not be the 9-5 job but I'm sure I'll end up with something I love and something I would want to get up to do even if I'd have to clock in at 7am.

I am weary about what will happen to me in this next year though. The cuts in Uni are leading to more courses. OH well, so it may take me longer to graduate. I guess its better to graduate late then to fail and do a bunch of classes. Getting back to reality I need to stop thinking about the future and start thinking about now.

Well... I'm gunna get back to cleaning my pig sty room. Xp.
Laters.

summmer summer time

wow summer is going way to fast! its july already! im actually getting a lot done this year as of last year. yayyyers! heheheee.
im excited as hell to start the new semester. itll be hard as fuck but itll b all worth it. hahaah.
just a little rant.

busy,bored,full

Soo i finally got busy and started cleaning my room and such after my guest from JPN left. I was able to get my act together and was lucky enough to cover ppl's shifts! :) yayyyy extra money to pay off my bills and such.
I get bored @ night a lot now so I spend my time watching tv on hulu and dvds. Just saw Bounty Hunter it was real cute... caught up on the All-star game. Whattt else... thats about it. Ohhh yeah I've been suffering wayyyy awful acne and im not even on it. I think its cuz I swictched to powder foundation and so I backed off to tinted moisteriser. (sp..). Yup!
I can't wait to get my own place... I've been dreaming about how I wanna lay out my own place! :) Freaakin Ikea catalog. LOL